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Creative Writing, CV, depressed, depression, Garth Brooks, job applications, lost and broken, reboot, relax, resume, serial fiction, tossed about, vacation, When you come back to me, Writing, writing resume
Today I have felt significantly depressed.
Do you ever have days like that? Come on… we ALL do. Some days are just far worse than others!
Yesterday was amazing… I wrote more pages of backstory than I think I EVER have and it’s such a strong base for my serial fiction story.
Then I was sitting at work this afternoon and wondering what I was doing there. I had two no-shows. I have reached out to all those who haven’t completed their histories and it seems to fall on deaf ears… in the case of email… eyes.
All I keep thinking is how tired I am and how much I need a break… a vacation. Step back. Breathe, relax, reboot. Not that it happens that way.
I’m frustrated because I currently have three jobs, nursing, nursing and teaching.
In addition to that I thought I had a payed writing gig from back in March but have heard nothing since writing one and rewriting five articles for her. I have also had this offer for the serial fiction which is AMAZING but seems to be THE SLOWEST PROCESS EVER!
So that, my friends, totals FIVE jobs and yet I only seem to benefit from two of them so far.
What do I do?
My writing resume/CV has grown but I still can’t seem to find anything that is satisfactory enough. In the last two weeks I have applied to three more jobs but seem to not get very far very fast.
I had compared my life some time ago now to a song by Garth Brooks… When You Come Back to Me which was originally from the movie Frequency made in 2001. The opening lines are:
There’s a ship out on the ocean at the mercy of the sea.
It’s been tossed about, lost and broken and wandering aimlessly.
And God somehow you know that ship is me.
‘Cause there’s a lighthouse, in a harbour shining faithfully…
I feel like that ship. I feel tossed about, lost and broken.
I don’t know if these are the emotions of a writer or just someone who is feeling lost in almost every aspect of life and career.