Christmas is in the air! I’ve been struggling this year to maintain the spirit because work has been so incredibly and insanely busy… booked with few to no breaks.
Then I had some employee issues that needed to be addressed… ho hum!
But I have been having that itch once again… the itch that is telling me that I need to get off my butt and figure out a way to start writing again and stop stalling on that.
I feel like I have yet to find “my groove” because something is always changing. Whether it’s schedule changes for myself or my daughter or if it’s something I remembered last minute that I have to do or if it’s my health issues cropping up—like all the headaches I’ve been getting lately—it seems something always gets set aside and that is usually my writing!
I have also been feeling pretty depressed lately. Part of it is my Seasonal Affective Disorder which I’m trying to control but there hasn’t been a lot of sun lately. It’s also the constant comparison to last year when I was home and recuperating and feeling not bad and getting a few little things done here and there and enjoying all the holidays had to offer. Now I’m doing that in the bits and pieces of my spare time.
I am actually reading a book but the fact that it’s by a favourite author the next section is starting to scare me. It’s a typical romance type novel where she has met him at a time of crisis and she has fallen live with him and now she’s about to find out that he’s been lying about who he really is and has a criminal past. Of course they’ll end up together in the end, somehow, but I just kind of sigh and wonder if I want to put myself through that emotional turmoil right now… on PURPOSE! Do I finish it? Do I set it aside? Do I skip that bad section?
I’m off the next two days and my intention is to put myself in as much of a Christmas mood as I can! I still have to finish marking for my class that wrapped up last week so that HAS to take priority… see! Always something… but hopefully it won’t take me too much longer to do that.
I also had my laptop do a restart the other day and when I opened Word it had come up with all of the restored items… somehow they disappeared and one of them was the very start of a new story. Now I can’t find it anywhere! 😦
Anyway, I guess the first step to getting back to writing is writing this. It’s always encouraging when I can actually sit and develop a blog post.
I wish you all a very Merry Christmas filled with love, hope, joy, and peace or, for those of you who do not celebrate Christmas may you just enjoy some love, hope, joy and peace with your families in the time that is filled with the newness of life.