Friday was just another day in a job I have grown to dislike immensely (to make the understatement of the year) and then I acquired updates on not one but two fracture patients we had assessed the week before and it made me question why I was there! Truly question that if my years of experience and advice are not going to be of value, other than a paycheque, why am I here?
For me it’s not JUST the boss, it’s the job. It’s the demands of patients and a lot of it is the lack of understanding of how the system works and people who want to see the doctor every time they need a prescription renewal or they expect to see a specialist in a week. It’s upsetting and stressful especially since I to just went through the system as a patient.
I know that there’s little else to do but TRY for change but, for several years now, I have been trying to determine what it is I WANT to do or be. What I want to change.
It’s one thing entirely to determine that all you need is a change in environment and change to the boss but stay in that field vs. asking yourself what it is you want to do.
So where do I see myself? I see myself still helping people but perhaps in a different capacity. The biggest challenge… a paycheque! Unfortunately the bills still need to be paid.
I happened upon a Life Coaching Certificate Program online and I’m going to do it! I already started it actually. It’s 100 videos that are about ten minutes each so many hours. I’ll keep you posted and maybe, just maybe, that too can be part of me helping people.
And naturally, there’s my writing. I so want to start seeing some serious money rolling in from that. Now that I’m back to writing I want that more than ever. I don’t want to stop and I’m having difficulties finding enough time to look at everything I want to look at, write what I want to write and edit what needs editing! I’m really trying to push hard and carry this momentum forward and wish I could reach light speed!
So I’m going to go back to it this afternoon!