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cancer, changes, Creative Writing, Life, NaNoWriMo, reading, surgery, The Writer, time, time off, writing magazines

As you know, I saw the specialist on Wednesday morning.  The specialist who still will not acknowledge the fact that there were malignant cells in what he removed in March.  He went over everything, bypassed my one concern and then said he wanted to wait until February and do yet another of the biopsy procedures.

That’s when I said ‘stop’.  I wanted to discuss surgery as an option.  I have not, up until now, divulged the cancer I had but will now because it’s much easier to tell the story… cervical.  So I asked about a hysterectomy because I’m in my 40s.  Not having any more babies and explained that my anxiety is out of this world and I can’t keep going from procedure to consult to procedure to consult with no real end in site and no answers.

And then what?  When HE determines that everything is okay I spend every year wondering if there are going to be bad cells turning up again?

It’s not worth it.  My family doctor had asked me why they just wouldn’t do the hysterectomy based on those first biopsy results and I explained that the specialist merely told me “we weren’t there yet”.  Well, because of my anxiety, I win… finally!

So, my message to all of you is to keep on pushing when it comes to your health.  Who knows where else cells are hiding!  So on November 16th, that’s where I will be.

Remember my asking when I would have time to read those writing magazines I bought?  Well, here it is!  Except that I did manage to read through The Writer which was very good and left me feeling good about my self-publishing!

I’m sure that by the middle of November there will be new ones out for me to get and read.  It’s also NaNoWriMo so it’ll be interesting to see if I’ll be able to sit and write!

One thing is for certain, there will be a LONG list of things I won’t be able to do and my daughter will HAVE TO step up and do a lot of it!  Laundry, vacuuming, getting the garbage out, etc.  I have a really long list of things I need to do in a month as well.  I’m even hoping to be able to get back to work part-time after two weeks… but the boss is on vacation starting December 14th so I could, essentially, be back off for that time.  We’ll see… it’s unfortunate that I have no idea how I will feel.

I will, of course, be posting between now and then, as usual!  If you haven’t signed up for NaNo yet make that happen!  Take the challenge! Write 50,000 words in 30 days!  You can do it!

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So Frustrated…

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bad roads, carpe diem, Christmas, Creative Writing, Editing, snow, snow removal, time off, Valentine's Day, winter hibernation, Writing

I hate winter.  And I think it hates me!  Here’s why…

I hate driving on bad roads.  I don’t like the feeling of the vehicle sliding this way and that and I’m afraid of losing control.  I’ve been driving for far too many years to tell so you’d think that living in Canada I’d be used to it by now.  But the last couple of winters, no.  My daughter rides, which means we head to the country twice a week, minimum.  Three times if she’s teaching (this coming week).  It’s not just the roads then, it’s the laneway into the barn–there is a very bad hill and the snow likes to drift everywhere!  I also have a bad back.  That means that getting cold and bundling up, etc. is far from comfortable.  If I were to slip on the ice (or get into a car accident) it would mean Morphine pain for me!  Not to mention that I have lost my parking spot at home thanks to incompetent snow removal staff.  I would rather hibernate in winter!

To hibernate would be wonderful.  To think of all the writing I could accomplish.  All the editing I could do!  Maybe I’d have 18 books rather than 8 going on 9!

Oh, and my two little girls, they got pushed off a week thanks to the weather last week.  We got two feet of snow and they were unable to get out of their streets!  See, you cannot plan anything in the winter here because it always gets ruined!

So another week goes by where I got very little done… but… my wonderful boss offered up an extra day off this week in his absence!  I will work all day Monday and Tuesday, have Wednesday and Thursday off then work a half day Friday (oh and Friday evening at the other job 😦 I forgot about that for a moment) then… big finish… a long weekend–Saturday, Sunday and Monday off.

That much should get me through some further editing and get the rest of my Christmas stuff put away–yes, it’s still up because I don’t have time to get any of it down!  I JUST put away my Nativity this morning as well as the cards.  It’s a slow transformation and one that I am never happy about.  I love the Christmas season.  I love the lights and how much happier people are.  I love the family gatherings just because and I hate to see it all get packed away.  The good news is, I only have to wait another nine months before I put it all back up again!

Next Saturday is Valentine’s Day after all–a day that hardly ever appears in any of my novels… perhaps I will have to change that!

I might even get a mid-week post up!

Carpe Diem!