So I don’t know how much my stress levels have lessened vs. just changed source! Despite all the stress I did feel from where I was I feel a different stress due to the change in schedule… as I’ve told people before, I don’t do stress well… I don’t manage it well. Unless, of course, it’s something that I REALLY, REALLY want!
So in that regard, now that the job has changed, my mind returns to writing. Like I said to someone yesterday, I get EXTREMELY agitated when I can’t write… either due to writer’s block or lack of time so, of course, you can begin to imagine where I’m going with this!
Add to that this next little tidbit and you will understand why I’m feeling like crawling the walls…
September 6 was #PitMad on Twitter… a pitch day for novels! So I tossed up six of my novels. Well, I got a bite! I got a like so I followed the instructions and sent the first 50 pages and then last week they contacted me… they had read the first 50 pages and asked, if the book was still available, if I could send the entire manuscript!
So now I’m sitting on pins and needles waiting to hear from them again! I can’t help it… isn’t this the one thing that all authors wait for? I realize that it can still go either way but it’s certainly exciting and it serves as fuel to fan the flames of my greatest desire which is to write.
I played the what-if game yesterday… what if they come back to me and want to know if I could write a sequel? What if they want that sequel in a hurry? Can I do it? I’m not asking that question on the true basis of can or can’t… as in ability but I ask Can I do it from the perspective of having the time and that spark of creativity at the moment that I need it?
So I am waiting… and I continue to wait since Sunday night I had to resend it because, for some reason, they couldn’t open the file… I might have been excited about sending the email and hit send before it completely attached. It’s the only thing I could think of that made sense. Of course there were some Higher Power thoughts there too but I’ll keep those to myself for right now because I don’t want to jinx myself too much!
So I started to flesh out some ideas just in case… because isn’t that what authors do?