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and two days…until Christmas! Maybe you didn’t want to hear that but, in all honesty, it’s kind of what’s keeping me going these days!
As you know, from previous blog posts, I’ve been feeling kind of melancholy and to those of you who know me really well, that’s an understatement!
So Christmas is helping to keep me going. I have my bells on my door and I set up my Nativity on Thursday so I have started. I’d have the entire place decorated if it wasn’t such a disaster! All in good time!
Much of that comes from the reflection I have been experiencing since my surgery… it was one year ago on Friday and it was one year ago today that I came home (a couple hours from now yet) and crawled onto my bed and promptly fell asleep! But I have a greater appreciation for the holidays because of last year. One thing I am going to miss is being home and curling up on the couch and watching Christmas movies with the cats and having some wonderful visitors. I feel like this year will go to waste if I’m not careful! But everything I’ve been through also gives a sense of joy. I have not regretted having my surgery which is probably the most important part… besides, I even managed to write a book out of it!
I have been a bad girl and not been doing much writing for NaNo… ho hum! Most of the time I’ve been too tired after work to write.
Which brings me to an interesting post I came across on Facebook last night posted by CBC… it says that Canadian authors make $9,000 a year. Someone, who is clearly NOT a writer, commented to say that we should get a job and write in our spare time… okay, go ahead and try that Miss non-writer. Often times, after you have spent eight hours at a job where you’ve put a smile on your melancholy face and given your best you just come home and crash rather than have the energy. Of course Mondays I come home and turn around and head on what is turning into a 40 minute drive to the college to teach for a couple more hours! So I just want to let Miss non-writer know that we writers do our best but it often isn’t the reality… it often isn’t that simple.
I also have a big baby at home who seems to be feeding off my moods and does everything he can be to be in my lap and, well, on the laptop as I try to write this!
I finally saw a former patient from family practice yesterday and we had a great chat. That actually helped lift my spirits a bit towards where I am now and what I’m doing.
The new furniture in the office looks great and I think I can finally, maybe try to settle in for a while and just be… maybe I can find some peace after all!
What I really want is my energy levels to boost back up (which is also very difficult with the onset of my SAD) so I could come home from work and have some energy to write.
Well, my friends, all in good time!