My life has been insane for over a year as most of you know.
As I try to move out of the fog of the last year I find myself constantly being pulled back in. When I want to put the pieces back together there’s someone who keeps taking the pieces away from me.
Post-surgically I’m still experiencing pain, numbness, burning, tingling and swelling at the surgical site and I still find I’m exhausted at the end of a day. I try to rest but it seems the more I say I’m tired the more everyone expects me to give! It’s definitely a different world!
Work is killing me and I’m not just talking fatigue. I’m talking about if-I-don’t-get-out-of-that-place-soon-I-might-jump-off-a-bridge syndrome. But I’m not even getting any interviews which is REALLY frustrating! Am I doing something wrong?
Then there is my writing. I want to but don’t seem to be able to. I’m thinking I’m going to HAVE to make another to-do list of some kind and start pushing my brain into it… I keep thinking I should start by editing some of my past work but the fatigue has been so bad I have difficulties focusing, even in the middle of a Saturday. Perhaps first thing in the morning? I don’t usually feel too bad at that time.
Other than that I haven’t figured anything else out, yet. I’m too tired now!