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Every time I even think about a blog post my mind goes blank.  I wish it would go blank where other things are concerned.

I am now 6 1/2 weeks post-op… corrected for 2 weeks of antibiotics I’m somewhere around the 5 week mark since that slows down the healing process.  I thought I would feel great by now and maybe I would feel better had I not had 2 infections.

What is bothering me the most though is returning to work tomorrow.  After everything that has happened with the @** over the last 6 weeks I don’t want to see him and I have no motivation to even be there.  Secondly, I don’t know if I will have the stamina to be there for 8 hours tomorrow.  Those are weighing so heavily on my mind.

I have applied for a number of jobs and have an interview on Wednesday morning.  For this interview I am information gathering for sure.  I’m hoping that there will be an abundance of postings suited for me and/or something I have already applied for works out.

As for 2017, well, I say good riddance!  It brought me so much grief that I’m still working through it all.  2018 is a clean slate for all of us.  I have been reading a book titled Fresh Start.  It talks about visualizing what it is you want.

I have been visualizing myself in a couple of roles because I want to keep my options open!  First, I visualize myself in a different office where my knowledge and abilities are appreciated and it’s a relaxed environment, much like I had.  Second, is visualizing myself working at home on writing.  All kinds of writing… new novel, articles, etc. And they pay the bills!

Most of us don’t like not knowing what’s coming at us and I am very much one of those people.  Sure some people wake up being happy for the day but I want to know what’s around that corner.  I need to know that there’s something else out there that will continue paying the bills for me.

I think I speak for most people when I say that all we want to be is happy in whatever it is we are doing.  Mark Twain said “Find a job you enjoy doing, and you will never have to work a day in your life.”  I had that before my boss retired.  It’s time to find that again!

Happy New Year to all and may 2018 bring us joy and wonder!