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Many days have passed and I will be four weeks post-op on Thursday.

However I have more pain and discomfort than I thought I would at this point and I tire very easily and with little effort.  The other day I wrapped four gifts and had to go sit down! This is making it incredibly difficult to prepare for Christmas.

I am also feeling very depressed because of those feelings and today I feel very harassed.  I feel like everyone is pressuring me suddenly to go back to work and go back full time starting next week!  Now, I can’t do! I know I have to cover for the boss who is on vacation but I can’t do 28 hours in a week.  I’m not supposed to be doing any time and getting people to understand that is like trying to get the kitten to sit and stay!  I’m not even supposed to drive and I haven’t been at all.  I have relied on others to give me a ride.  I understand the rationale behind that which is why I’m trying to hold off as long as possible.

In fact, I’m very likely going to be sending my regrets to my former boss with regards to dinner tomorrow night because by 4:30 in the afternoon I’m beat and even short spans of social interaction wear me out very quickly.  I guess what’s most frustrating is people’s lack of ability to understand.  I know not everyone can relate.

In other news…

  1. I was supposed to have an interview this morning that was cancelled because they needed someone immediately… another reason to feel depressed today after I had felt so hopeful yesterday.  I don’t know what else to do and am feeling pretty disheartened right now.
  2. This weekend–Friday, Saturday and Sunday–and next–Friday and Saturday–all of my Kindle books are FREE!
  3. Writer’s Block still plagues me.  I’d like to say something came of that idea I had but, unfortunately, no.  At least not right now.

I’d love to have the ability to re-evaluate but I just feel like I hit a wall every way I turn.  I feel like road blocks line my path.

I think I’ll go back and do what I do best… and that is to rest!