As you all know I have been having an awful time at work. I have personal stuff going on that you are aware of. My partner-in-crime is also having a tough time with family things right now so we are truly in the same boat.
I have continued to journal every day to get my frustrations out of my head, though they remain. I haven’t worked much on my NaNoWriMo story and really do need to get back to that as, it too, was actually very therapeutic and I miss it.
On a happy note, I applied for a job on Saturday and I got a call yesterday to set up an interview. It’s set up for Wednesday at 1:00. I don’t want to jinx it but, on the job front, it’s the happiest thing ever! There are questions I could have asked on the phone, like how many hours, but I figure, if nothing else, it would serve as practice. If it works out, great, no complaints here.
I’ve journalled about that and it feels good, it feels right. It would be cool. I would learn new things and be able to teach them a thing or two about various disease processes, far more than they might know from anywhere else.
And so many people right now are playing the “the grass isn’t always greener on the other side” and “better the devil you know”… well, the devil I know is starting to show signs of his tail and horns so I think, in this instance, the devil I don’t know can’t be any worse.
So that’s where things are at in this moment. Of course I have concerns not only about my vacation but, more importantly, how this could impact my procedure at the end of the month. I would love to be able to say I can’t start until September 5th but there are other boundaries to cross before I get to that point and I have to stop getting ahead of myself… I think we all tend to do that and for those of us who are writers, we often play the “what-if” game until our minds are numb. It’s part of who we are as writers because that’s what we do every time we sit down and make up more of our stories.
We push that into our real lives because that’s how we operate. And it’s not always a good thing. It leads us to anxiety and builds up our expectations beyond where they should be.
It’s who we are. So I shall move forward, like always, and cross bridges when I get to them and try, as hard as I can, to keep this particular line in mind rather than allowing it to run wild!