Yesterday’s post was about gratitude. Today, yeah, not so much!
The last place I wanted to be yesterday, as they day wore on, was at work. I came home feeling incredibly agitated. “Don’t bug me” agitated. Watched the baseball game, settled in and calmed down but it took a lot of time.
Today I only worked until 1:00 and I felt pretty good leaving work. I’m done now until the 17th. I can relax, I can get some much-needed work done. Midway through the afternoon I felt the agitation rising again. What was that about? So I am asking myself why do I feel this way? Why could I shoot first and ask questions later once a certain point of the day hits? I don’t understand.
We left here around 3:15 to go to my daughter’s lesson and I missed the end of the game… not for trying though! I hit record before we left but it went too long. We WON though!
It hasn’t helped that there’s been a big homework crunch again and I’m trying to fit everything in but it’s not working. Rather, it’s having a profound effect on me… again. On Tuesday I printed off a copy of the 31 pages of Confessions in the Mural. I went to bed to read it and the bottom two lines on each page were missing!
So I have yet to have the chance to get back to MY stuff. I think that’s part of the problem. What I need is getting put on the back burner. It doesn’t matter to anyone else. On one hand, why should it, but, as I have shared many times before, I get extremely agitated when I haven’t been able to write.
Maybe I just answered my own question?
I have to cut this short… I now have a pony blanket to fix… all before bed. 😦