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Bottom line and being frank about it–it sucks!

As is the case with most of us, we want to do other things when we’re at work.  We’d rather be anywhere else.  I am pretty down on my job of 8 years for a number of reasons but… I haven’t written that next great bestseller so the pay cheque I require!

It was a pretty hectic week considering I was on vacation.  Camp didn’t go so hot and at this point in time, I’m not sure I ever want to do that again.  I don’t even know if I want to carry on with the teaching at all at this point.  But that’s another story.  The point is, I had afternoons off, at home and other than a few blog posts, I wrote nothing!  I think it was exhaustion!

I also applied for a second part-time job because of financial demands.  I figured I was probably in a better position to get something quickly as a part-time RN than she is with little to no retail experience.  So instead of giving myself more time, I’m taking it away.  Maybe the stress will fall away though and that will open up an entirely different avenue of writing for me…

So it seems to ebb and flow.  Sometimes it’s with me and other times not.  I return to work on Monday and have nothing to show for it except for a so-so successful camp (if you can call it successful when I only had 3, 1 of which was an absolute–can’t say it here!).

I will continue to try to fit it all together.  I sometimes wonder if and when all the pieces will fall into place and I will be able to relax into a routine again where writing is at the centre of that.